Naysayers and Body Shaming

So the other day I was at the Gym. Mind you my body is older It doesn’t look twenty anymore. Not to mention that life shows up on it now. I mean depression, sitting all day reading, scars from pregnancy really makes a woman not look that fit anymore.

So I was exercising two gorgeously fit women are also exercising. I keep doing my workout it was hot inside the air conditioner must have been out. The other women where wearing there sports bras so everyone could see because of the heat. I am not ashamed with my body I know what I look like and I know I could look better. Anyway one looked over at me after I took my shirt off so that I also was only in my sports bra. I look like the heat was getting to me, which it was. I observe people while I work out because well I do yoga and it is do the pose wait 15 to a minute 30 seconds move on to the next pose. One of the women looked me over (top to bottom) and started laughing. Not full blown outright fit but giggles none the less. So I gave her my biggest smile. You know reverse Sociology works. Her Eye brows raised, the laugh was wiped off her face. She was giving me this bewildered look. I just kept on doing my stretches and yoga poses as if nothing bothered me. But it really did hurt.

I was trying to get into shape. Really putting some effort into it. I had been doing it for several months. After that I lost all my gumption to want to go again also losing all my progress. I know what everyone is thinking I shouldn’t allow other people to put awful thoughts into my head. Yet, I don’t have a really good support group or good friends to help me dispel all the negativity with.  What other people think sinks in and ruins some of the good feeling  I had build up about working out and doing something good for my body. So I am going to try again. The next time I see them and if they laugh again. I will say a least I am here and not sitting around on my couch.

Wish I knew how to make friends. My husbands supportive but can’t go to the gym with me to many injuries with his back. I would like to have someone that would exercise with me.

Today

Live your day as if it is your last.

Tomorrow may never come.

Live you life Happily and with love.

For Happiness and love is all you have and it is yours to give.

For if you live your life as if it is nothing

Then you become nothing.

Help those around you.

Don’t loan Money if you know it will never be paid back

give it instead.

If you see someone in need Do something.

For Today May Be your very last day to help a person.

Treat people like you want to be treated.

For if you treat those around you with Happiness and Love they will treat you and others the same.

Complaining about something doesn’t fix the problem take action.

Open your Mind, Everyone has a story.

We are all genetically the same species the outside does not show what is on the inside be happy we are all different.

If we where all the same life would be truly boring.

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This is me My name is Elizabeth. Can’t remember when this picture was taken but it’s not more than a five years old.

Solar Eclipse 2017-eyes are worth saving use Protection

So I have been planning on going north for the Eclipse but I started to think how in the world am I going to see it while its happening until total Darkness or totality as it is called. So I looked it up because I am not going to risk my eyes to blindness I need them for my job looking in microscopes.

Can find a place to buy things here.

http://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2017/08/01/540661570/planning-to-watch-the-eclipse-heres-what-you-need-to-protect-your-eyes

Can learn an inexpensive way to see it by making it.

https://www.jpl.nasa.gov/edu/learn/project/how-to-make-a-pinhole-camera/

https://astrophysicsdotcom.wordpress.com/2017/04/22/how-to-make-a-box-pinhole-projector/

I actually bought glasses for the whole family but I am also thinking I may make a pinhole tube projector big enough for both eyes think it would be pretty interesting.

The Truth is Out There. Somewhere?

Okay so I have been really trying to put my thoughts out there.  I guess I have to say where I stand first.

So I believe with my whole of me that everyone is created equal. Regardless of Skin color or other characteristics. There are always exceptions to that rule they usually regard the persons actions after the fact an example murderers, and rapists. I do believe people can change but since trust is already lost in before examples those people must earn their rights back and some can’t because they are repeat offenders. Also Mental illness is a factor I believe can cause people to not be equal but watched, most people with certain mental illnesses can cause a ton of harm either to themselves or others, especially if they can’t figure out what is real and what isn’t or they have compulsions that cause harm.   I also believe that this small section of our population is under diagnosed and not being treated and there isn’t places to put people that need treatment.

On that note, I have really tried my best to find the truth of a story even if it is one I would like to believe. I like the saying that never judge people unless you have been in their shoes even then you shouldn’t judge because their circumstances may be different. It upsets me to no end when people can’t or are not willing to find out the truth. Take Facebook for example I see so many fake stories that it isn’t funny and probably ruins a lot of lives.

So I look for sites that hopefully try to find out the truth behind the story, Because of how many Fake News sites are out there.  Of course I will give you the site I use, but fair warning I am not completely sure they all tell the unbiased truth.

Polifact www.politifact.com/

Factcheck www.factcheck.org

Snopes www.snopes.com/

Truth or Fiction http://www.truthorfiction.org/

Favorite Bread Recipe

This is my Lammas bread.

Ingredients:

  1. 4 cups (1 lb, 4 oz / 566 grams) all-purpose flour
  2. 1 Tablespoons instant yeast
  3. 2 Tablespoons honey
  4. 6 Tablespoons oil ( your favorite neutral oil, or melted butter) I personally Like butter
  5. 4 1/2 cups (2 pounds / 908 grams) warm milk (or water), about 85° F
  6. About 8 cups  bread flour  or more all purpose flour (Probably will not use the whole 8 Cups but you might I have during high humidity most likely though it will be more around 6 cups)
  7. 1½ Tablespoons (22 grams) salt

Directions: This recipe produces three loaves.

Mixing:

Proof yeast in milk and honey until nice and frothy.

In a very large bowl, sift the all-purpose flour (I use a wooden spoon for stirring and a really large Glass Bowl). Make a small well in the middle of the flour mixture and pour in the oil and the milk.

Mix well, then continue to stir vigorously, slowly adding 1 cup of the bread flour at a time and stirring it in, until you’ve added 3 to 4 cups of bread flour and have a sticky, shaggy dough; this should take a few minutes.

Resting (Autolyze):

Cover the bowl with oil sprayed plastic wrap or wet damp(not dripping but not too dry) tea towel and let it rest for 20 minutes. (I keep stacks of these in a cabinet drawer and use them constantly all around the kitchen). This rest period is called the autolyze.

Kneading:

Add the salt and 1 more cup of sifted bread flour and stir it in as best you can. Add another cup of bread flour if the dough is still too sticky to knead repeat as needed. Turn the dough out onto a floured work surface and knead it with floured hands until the dough is soft and smooth, about 8 to 10 minutes.

Try not to over flour that is the reason I sift the flour just need it to get smooth and elastic no stickiness

As you’re kneading, sprinkle a little more flour at a time as needed to keep it from sticking to your hands or the work surface. You want the dough to be as soft as possible without being sticky; you may not need the entire eight cups of bread flour, or you may need a little extra.

Rising:

Using a Bowl that is twice the size of the dough I oil the dough and the container just enough to coat and allow to rest till double in size (when Container is full). Cover with Plastic wrap or lid if bowl comes with it which mine does.

Set the dough somewhere that is preferably between 70°F and 75°F (this is my oven with the light on) until it has doubled in size, around 90 to 130 Minutes (1 1/2hrs to 2 hrs 10 mins).  May need longer just depends on temp and amount of yeast. I like to leave overnight (this is why only 1 TBSP). Ideally, the dough itself should be between 70°F and 75°F. It’s fine if your dough is cooler; it’ll just take longer to rise and will end up even tastier.

I heat the milk to about 100°F (don’t make it any hotter or you’ll risk killing the yeast). If you keep your flour in the freezer (it’s the best place to store whole grain flours which I would do if I had a bigger Freezer that’s where my dad always kept his), use warmer milk, or let the flour come to room temperature first. It’s easy to check the temperature of your dough and ingredients with an inexpensive thermometer. I use a candy thermometer for Liquids and a Dial thermometer with a pointy end for thicker stuff like bread and meat.

When the dough is ready to be shaped, you should be able to push a floured finger deep into it and leave an indentation that doesn’t spring back.  That means it has extended all it can and is really spongy.

Shaping

Turn the risen dough out onto a lightly floured work surface, flattening gently with your hands to break up any large air bubbles. Divide the dough into three equal pieces. The easiest way to divide up dough into loaves or rolls is with a stainless steel dough scraper, also called a bench scraper or pastry scraper. I have two,  the metal one from above and a plastic one, and they’re always in constant use. Nothing works better for cleaning up the counter after working with something that is sticky or floury. Which can be quite messy. Can use them like a squeegee and work your way around the mess to pick it all up.

Shape it to loaves to put in bread pans this is a sandwich bread after all. Oil the bread pans and place loaves in pans.  Place pans back in warm spot and cover with plastic wrap sprayed with oil.

Rising Number Two

Allow them to rise until the dough springs back just a little when you gently poke it with a floured finger, about 40 to 60 minutes this could be longer or shorter depending on temp, and altitude.

If you let the loaves rise too long, they may not have enough energy left to rise once they’re in the oven, and they may even collapse. I have over proofed several times just need to find that happy Middle where I don’t cause a blowout but under proofing or collapses with over proofing.

Bake at 375° for 35 minutes, or until the loaves are golden brown and the bottoms sound hollow if tapped (you need to carefully remove a loaf from the pan to check this).

Remove the loaves immediately from the pans and let them cool on a wire rack. The bread will continue to bake inside while it’s cooling, so try to wait at least 40 minutes before cutting into a loaf.

Store at room temperature or freeze in zipper freezer bags. I like to use the 2.5 gallon jumbo zipper food storage bags, which will fit two loaves. Make sure the loaves are completely cooled before sealing in bags. If you have a bread box wrap in a tea towel and place in clean bread box. If it is anything like in my house it will be gone before the next day. Of course now that Lammas I take two loaves out to the garden for the birds and other animals that come into it.